LOST...

Lost? as in wat field? hmm... freaking sad and disappointed today... "kbin, 1 week time you only did this and show me today? i don wan to listen to your ideas! suppose to show me your finalyzed works today!!" how the hell you feel if u were me when u presenting ur design to ur lecturer in a group tutorial? bearing my tears and don let it fall with just a simple replied, "sorry, i've got my personal probs."

lecturer asked me to see her after the tutorial.. by listening to my explains, she finally apologized to me... im sorry, really running out of time and ill really do my best for this project ok..? promised. she said if i needs she can actually extend the deadline for me, but i rejected and i told her sorry, i dont wanna be a problem student. chill out lots things wit ms. chui yee, and i feel like not bad she's quite a good listener and an understanding lecturer. it is really some hurts to me after listening the lecturers comment for my works, im omost cry... sigh...

the same thing goes worst, my grandpa was in the hospital and he is mentally give up and refused to eat and drink. but actually he is now in a serious situation, dr said no more hopes to cure... haih, think the TIMES come... as wat dr. christina told us, if he really wanna GO, all we can do is let him go and dont call him. hmm... how would i let him go... last nite i really cant bear my tears, he is in a blur situation is like his mind keep flashing back the old memories. he talks something weird, and closing his eye. the thing is he suddenly asked where i went just now, y late to come home... hmm sigh~ i cried on the spot... coz thinking bck as he always ask where i went last time once i come home late... hmmm... that nite when i stay overnite at the hospital to accomp him, he did sleep but he willl open his eye and look around is like seeing SOMETHING... old folks used to says, when a ppl going to pass away he will see the died relative to take him away... so its do really make me scared, and i hold his hand... i don wan him to scare i wan him to feel that im just around him... he wants to go home and told us that he don wan stay in the hospital... i kno wat he think he rather pass away in his own place but not hospital. but dr said if he go home he will pass away as in a struggling way coz the fluid will cause him breathless, as well as thats out of any medic equipments in the house. if he stay in hospital he will die comfortable, coz as long as they have the completes equipment for him. after convinced by us he decided to stay... all i can now is go to hospital everyday to accomp grandpa to finish the remaining life journey of him, sorry thats the reason im being freaking tired and moody recently... time goes by... think everything will end up fast with a happiness ending.

thats the thing happens recently, oops and i went to an advertising training agency yesterday, thats a talk for us. mm... its quite worth to attend, and i really get the points he trying to tell us. doin an ads is not only to be creative but u have to design it logically which suit to the market needs.