回魂夜...

今日系公公的回魂夜，

我答应婆婆今日会陪距过夜...

一早我同班friends去左shopping...

唔想去，但班friend 想我帮距地拣衫。

开始中意左pavilion...

同埋pull and bear 的衫都唔错价钱大众化！

parkson 入面的试衣室劲大！

超舒服！

我买左公公生前最中意食的东波肉返去...

临返前落左场大雨...

突然间又念返起公公以前经常带我地去大人餐厅食野...

宗系好挂住距...

你今晚会真的返黎吗...？

孤单 。冬至

所谓过冬大过年，

今年过冬好孤单。

以前总会在婆婆家吃饭，吃汤圆....

总会看见喜欢热闹的公公嘻嘻笑...

今天不再想往常一样了。

我孤单的呆在破碎的家～

没人在身边，

好想念以往的日子，

有公公有婆婆有爸爸有妈妈，

有一个完整的家...

*公，如果你在就好了！



～冬至快乐～

Grandpa passed away silently...

Finally,
grandpa leave us...
without noticing a single word...
i know he gone peaceful,
but do you remember you promised me,
you'll wait me finish presentation and accompany you that nite..
how come u went away that morning..?!
grandma told me, after i went bck the day before,
he did look for me...
1st glance on his dead body,
my tear couldn't even drop...
my mind keep telling me you're still sleeping with all the same setting like usual..
i still went for my presentation.

when i came home, the whole setting changed.
it's a funeral...
his dead body put aside which covered the whole body with a red blanket.
i asked why cover grandpa's head.. i don wan... i still wanna see him everyday!
tears fall eventually..
i can't imagine my day without him.
he cant accompany me dinner everyday,
he cant hold my hand everyday,
he cant talk to me anymore...
a lot cant floating in my minds.

Everythg happened in a sudden.
we neva expect that he will pass away that fast,
y neva wait for me..?
do you know i have a lot thgs to tell you still!!

to all frens,
i'll be ok, just need some times.
think it as in a positive way,
maybe its a sweet escape for him.
to escape by suffering by the sickness.
i understand, gong...
你安息啦...

*frens sent their condolences to me.. really appreciate this... they keep on msging me whether am i ok... that's a real frens defined! they are well understood me coz grandpa is the dearest to me...
denice, min c, qx, kangwei, poh hoi, aqua, aun, ai chey, tiong hoe, kee hoe, huang, fu, tim, hui e, foong e, b yen, yin, hui ring, kimmy, sweetie, winnie, b, albert, zhen, min min, cathy, yiping, shan, jc, melinda, yee mei, shu juan, ivy, chloe, boon, chiann, zoe, cheryl, swee chuan, soon kiat, kien, shi rong, cy etc...
im console to see you all, thanks for the donation and your attendance to the funeral... with my whole sincerity...

后悔

终于忙完手头的project，
跟往常一样今天去了探望公公。
他今天没有昨天精神，连眼睛也没打开过...
他怎么了？
医生说他病情逐渐恶化，
这也暗示了他要离开我们的日子也越来越近了...

一个人坐在门口的秋千，
呆了。
此时眼泪不由自主的流下了...
前天公公还对着我笑聊，
虽然那是半清醒状态。
想着他那慈祥的笑容，我那天真的不想回家赶功课。
他好久好久没这样笑过了...
公啊，
我真的不想你走... 但不能...
我很后悔为什么那天不陪你聊通宵！！
今天却没有了那个机会...
我在叫你，
你有听到吗？
真的后悔，我情愿不交功课！
情愿陪你！！！！
对不起... ;'c

不习惯没有你...

Studio time...

Just taken few pics in our studio today... everyone is bz wit their tutorial and working wit their own things coz deadline is around the corner... sigh...


pic 1> Kabs and shan... oops
pic2 > my mac and im doin my work ok...
pic 3> tutor wit us

X school mates gathering @ Scarlet

finally, the 1st met with u all after i came bck from Aussie... even that just a short time, but i do have some fun wit u all! chill out some other day dudes..!

挂住周俊杰！！

今日同杰仔chat 一 chat，

距话觉得一个人在泊斯的生活好孤单，居然突然好挂住我地...

距仲话阿伟就要返黎KL啦！！

就甘距更加觉得寂寞！！因为距自己一个返香港...

哈哈，

周俊杰，你都有今日啦！！

移民过黎马来ler... 甘我地就可以陪你咯！

一年时间就快期满啦，系时候返香港面对现实啦！

唔好再为距伤心知唔知！我地永远支持你！

多谢你在那段日子不断支持同鼓励我，我会永远记得你！

怀念我地饮whiskey个晚！记得吗？

你醉了，仲喊到成个花面猫！

最惨系我同伟要应酬你的酒后真言！！

同埋劲好玩的蒙娜丽莎，呢道无人陪我玩...（你知拉winnie唔玩得）

仲记唔记得个首歌？ Fantastic 呢？

同埋你那‘精湛’的舞蹈＋所谓的beat! 令我在那冬天跟住我地的beat和你’磨檫‘取暖！！

ahaha, 劲搞笑！

挂住你啊，周俊杰！

对不起

有件事令我过意不去，

前几日留言于一个人

简单的：hi, =P

这个留言居然引起了人家对我的憎厌。

对不起，

想话你知我无心架，真系唔知他是你的ex...

同埋我一直以来都留言给新加的friends!

并无他意！

（觉得系埋有d小器呢？鬼知这个圈子甘细咩... 对唔住咯！！）

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thats a new lecturer comes to our class today, he's mr.shawn. after his introduced himself, we know that he just back form london last 2 months. he's quite good looking but his fashion style is just bit hehehe different form others.

hmm... i suddenly have a stupid thought. im so silly keep blaming myself why i oways cant do all things in a perfect way. if im a talented student, i can st8 away get my scorlarship and study at oversea... haih... not born in a rich family some more..!! what to do... if there's a chance for me to leave now and study at oversea i'll say yes immediately... no doubt!! thats nothing meaningful for me to stay here as in a sad land..! without a good family background and if grandpa really away... wat else can make me stay here..?! i wondering why mr.shawn come bck to malaysia rather than staying at london!!!

im in the GREY mood, if i need to paint an artwork sure greyish colors will 1st comes to my mind... i wan leave leave to a faraway country form malaysia... to restart myself to a new life... CAN i?!!

leave 孙燕姿 lyrics:

车走走停停　路人潮拥挤　过往画面让心在下雨
我不会刻意回避　还爱你　念着念着却想哭泣

这世界有没有地方　能永远都晴朗
没有倔强　爱不再让谁受伤
身旁没你　地球失去重量
我多想能朝你方向飞吧　飞吧

你没对我说再见　所以我没有走远
等待你等得　忘了时间　快乐却早已跟随着你
Leave~　Leave~　Leave~

曾一起努力　曾一起相信　甜的苦的　剩各自回忆
用我最大的决心　要自己　爱了放了　没有恐惧

你没对我说　要我离去
我还在这里　等你带我
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LOST...

Lost? as in wat field? hmm... freaking sad and disappointed today... "kbin, 1 week time you only did this and show me today? i don wan to listen to your ideas! suppose to show me your finalyzed works today!!" how the hell you feel if u were me when u presenting ur design to ur lecturer in a group tutorial? bearing my tears and don let it fall with just a simple replied, "sorry, i've got my personal probs."

lecturer asked me to see her after the tutorial.. by listening to my explains, she finally apologized to me... im sorry, really running out of time and ill really do my best for this project ok..? promised. she said if i needs she can actually extend the deadline for me, but i rejected and i told her sorry, i dont wanna be a problem student. chill out lots things wit ms. chui yee, and i feel like not bad she's quite a good listener and an understanding lecturer. it is really some hurts to me after listening the lecturers comment for my works, im omost cry... sigh...

the same thing goes worst, my grandpa was in the hospital and he is mentally give up and refused to eat and drink. but actually he is now in a serious situation, dr said no more hopes to cure... haih, think the TIMES come... as wat dr. christina told us, if he really wanna GO, all we can do is let him go and dont call him. hmm... how would i let him go... last nite i really cant bear my tears, he is in a blur situation is like his mind keep flashing back the old memories. he talks something weird, and closing his eye. the thing is he suddenly asked where i went just now, y late to come home... hmm sigh~ i cried on the spot... coz thinking bck as he always ask where i went last time once i come home late... hmmm... that nite when i stay overnite at the hospital to accomp him, he did sleep but he willl open his eye and look around is like seeing SOMETHING... old folks used to says, when a ppl going to pass away he will see the died relative to take him away... so its do really make me scared, and i hold his hand... i don wan him to scare i wan him to feel that im just around him... he wants to go home and told us that he don wan stay in the hospital... i kno wat he think he rather pass away in his own place but not hospital. but dr said if he go home he will pass away as in a struggling way coz the fluid will cause him breathless, as well as thats out of any medic equipments in the house. if he stay in hospital he will die comfortable, coz as long as they have the completes equipment for him. after convinced by us he decided to stay... all i can now is go to hospital everyday to accomp grandpa to finish the remaining life journey of him, sorry thats the reason im being freaking tired and moody recently... time goes by... think everything will end up fast with a happiness ending.

thats the thing happens recently, oops and i went to an advertising training agency yesterday, thats a talk for us. mm... its quite worth to attend, and i really get the points he trying to tell us. doin an ads is not only to be creative but u have to design it logically which suit to the market needs.